January 11, 2010 @ 1:15 am by sean
Alas, I cannot swim.
This went from a delightful song, to a song that puts into music form what I’ve been writing about my life here for a while now. That seems cheap, because pop music is cheap. But this is wonderful song. There is a life across the river, a life meant for her – a wonderful house and a boy, but she cannot swim, so she lives her life in misery. The same enlightened mediocrity I realized about 7 months ago. She cannot swim, however, only because she will not swim.
But she reaches a turning point, of sorts, when she refuses to please those who will never be pleased. And then the double negative, she doesn’t want none of the gold. Colloquially she doesn’t want any. Literally she wants some. Because it’s fleeting and fickle, but it’s also fun. However, if she gets the gold she’ll be conquered by it; so she’d rather stay dry than be held up by a golden gun saying
Have More Fun.
I am dry, yet I am still held up by that same golden gun. I have no gold, yet I live under the dominion of the gold demanding I work more, earn more, live more, have more fun – and so I must get that gold.
I know what better life there is for me. My metaphorical house with flowers that seem to grin, and boy with black curly hair, the life meant for me – whether it’s having enough money to pay bills; entertain myself in a public setting; provide for others; a car I don’t need to worry about; exploring my new surroundings; providing myself with the various foods I want to eat; procuring the music that pleases my ear; exploring the outdoors as I fancy; the materials for my various projects; perhaps even a girl with short, black curly hair; infallibility in semicolon use; etc. – my mind can’t escape from gold being the catalyst that makes it all possible.
It would be a favor to yourself to search out these two incredible albums by the Michigan college Grand Valley State University New Music Ensemble: In C Remixed, and Music for 18. From Terry Riley’s In C, and Steve Reich’s Music for 18 Musicians. Really any form of In C and Music for 18 will be the best thing you did for yourself that day.