May 8, 2006 @ 6:59 am by sean
I want to be a philosopher of physics.
Christians are all up in cahoots about evolution, but what about quantum mechanics?
Apparently the uncertainty of quantum mechanics means we have free will. However, a guy with the last name ‘t Hooft seems to have proven (in theory) that there is a determinism behind the uncertainty. A determinism that removes free will. Can our God exist without free will?
Some mathmeticians think ‘t Hooft is wrong. So they wrote this. A free will theorm. (the philosophy part starts on page 24 of the .pdf. Unfortunately I am tired and cannot be asked to pay enough attention to it to understand it.)
Proving free will with physics, how fun is that?
I do not understand free will or physics, even less proving one with the other. Who knew science could prove something like that?
I just gave my final presentation for my toy project that I have been working on all term.
It was bloody aweful.
That is all it was.
Just like graphic design critiques. Stand up. Talk about my stuff, answer questions, move on to someone else.
Except this time I had less confidence in what I presented. I did not know I could have less confidence than what I have in my graphic design.
It is mostly due to lazy procrastination.
If one procrastinates procrastination, are they active?
I made such little effort to do something here. I just did what I could, not what I could not. Considering I do not do product design, and I do not know much about it I was rather limited.
It was not my toy that I had little confidence in.
Actually by the time I presented I rather liked my idea.
It was the presentation itself that was ugly. Poorly made plasticine models that did not reflect the time spent on them. Presentation boards made too late to use any graphic design skills on them, and then printed in black and white because no other printers worked and it was 3 am. Not enough models to back up my idea. Hardly anything to give a sense of what the toy actually looked like and how it worked. I am not even sure if it really does.
I also only got about 20 minutes of sleep last night.
I refuse to pull an all-nighter. So I went to bed an hour before I had to get up.
Even though I had dug myself in a hole, and then the hole began to collapse, I found a way to climb out and had a clever presentation.
But my lack of confidence persevered and it did not come out nearly as witty as it had been thought through.
A whole term came down to one 3 minute presentation.
Rubbish models. Crap black and white boards. Lack of production information. Poor oral delivery.
If I had been more motivated I would have learned different modeling techniques to produce a model that looked like a real product.
If I had been more determined I would started and finished my boards sooner, allowing time to over come a problem such as no A3 and no color printers working.
If I had been more persistant I would have learned how my toy would actually have been produced and could have given some educated specifics.
If I had been more of those three things I would have been more confident, hence, more likely to give a smooth presentation.
And I would have given my body the full nights rest it deserves.
But now it is over and I did not do those things.
At least he liked my idea.
Two down. One to go. My final project is due Thursday. Then feedback next Friday. Then home in the Thursday after that.
It is ending.
I am happy.
I am sad.
I am tired.
I feel so far away from everyone. Judson is done, I feel like no one reads this anymore.