January 4, 2006 @ 3:50 pm by sean
And now the intensity has possibly competely dropped off.
I think I’m going to take a nap.
I was talking with Lisa a little bit ago, and the notion came up that God won’t give someone more than they can handle. I hope this doesn’t mean God thinks I can’t handle this. I suppose he would know it. I hope it isn’t true. I thought I was going to make it alright. Hm. Maybe He was proving to me I could handle it, but has decided to go easy on me. Ugh. I hope there is a different reason. Maybe He just knows how much more fulfilling this experience will be if I have the proper amount of time to get fully prepared. Am I just trying to justify my insufficiencies?