January 17, 2005 @ 12:21 am by sean
Mike and I hung out in Rockford yesterday. That was neat. Really neat. We just hung out, I was tired and not as sociable as he deserved, but I got to see a part of Mike’s life away from school, and that is really something special. Similar to going to Kevin’s or Angie’s, we drove the fantastic back roads and I learned all about the things Mike is familiar with.
When Angie came to visit Mike and I on Friday, we discussed the last time we felt ‘at home.’ For me, it was over break when I would drive to various locations on roads familiar to me, and that were the fastest way, but not the simplest; not the way I would give directions to someone if they were going the same place. Knowing stuff like that takes time and experience and is somewhat exclusive because probably no one knows the same way to the same places as everyone else. So getting a glimpse of what is familiar to Mike is something I really found to be neat. He told me about different things that he knows about and has noticed on the roads he drives. We went to his house and saw his grandma and mom and sisters and I saw his room and the things he keeps there. I got to tag a long in Mike’s life, a part of his life that is different from the life I usually see. Only knowing people at school only gives one somewhat of a conspectus of their life, and one doesn’t always get to see what makes the people around them who they are. I find it really interesting to learn about the lives of my friends before they knew me.
This is kind of why I didn’t want to go away to school. I was pretty sure I would have a great time going away, and that I would make great friends and have great fun. And that was a horrible thought to me, because I knew that before long, we would go our separate ways and most of what we had would be over. Even more than last year, at the end of this semester, good friends will be leaving me. That makes me really sad. I knew they would leave, and I am glad those who were in my life and have left, and those who will be leaving, have been in my life. It seems only recently has that really been on my mind and I’ve realized how much I appreciate it, how wonderful it is that I get to experience with the people around me. I know that when Mike graduates at the end of this semester, we won’t be sharing a room together any more, and the joy of that will be a memory. Friends will leave that I may never see again, and the joy we are sharing now will pass away. Everywhere in my life, I am surrounded by the best people in the world. That is a subjective judgement, and in my opinion, the people around me are greater than anyone else. It is so neat that Rayne is sitting next to me, and working on a project, and I am involved in his life, and he in mine, and that he is a person whom I love and care for because he is my friend, and I get to be a part of his life. This is true for all my friends, and I hope that I can always be aware of how wonderful it is to be a part of their life.
I’m so thankful for anyone who is in my life, in anyway. I haven’t treated all of them as well as they should have been, and I have wasted opportunities to revel in their presence as I should have, but every interaction I’ve had has been worth it, especially those interactions that involved people I hold close to my heart. I hope I’m not the only one benifiting from these interactions.
I’ll be sad when this is all over, and there will be many causes for that sadness. But I hope I’ll never forget these people and these experiences, regardless of their significance. It is dissapointing each time someone leaves my life, and I hope my part in their life was worth it for them. Everyone here(and those I go back to at home) has definitely had a lasting impression on my life, and I’m so increadibly grateful for that I hope I can do something about it. Friends are important to me and something I value a lot, and I’m glad I’m able to call the friends I have, friends.