January 19, 2005 @ 10:53 pm by sean
There is a Thursday song, and it has lyrics. I like the lyrics. They go something like this:
In this house of cards we’re all holding hearts and spades
(one breath, one step could knock it all down)
but you lead with your eyes and you give it away
(decide, design to cut from the clouds).
When the people you love get lost in the shuffle,
(when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts)
I think especially the first line is an interesting metaphor on life, and is quite true.
So I’ve made some observations recently that have helped me feel a little better about the content of my last post. Somewhat of the conclusion I reached, is that it is necessary there is always something ‘off’ about life; that is what keeps us yearning after God, and yearning after heaven. Our citizenship is in heaven and is our final resting place, so if life could be perfect or if life is perfect, than heaven would be of no necessity. Sometimes it is difficult not to love life so much that it distracts one from God. This is quite a horrible place, but God definitely does wonderful things sometimes to make it more than tolerable. This might be wrong, but God is in the things He blesses us with, but He isn’t the thing He blesses us with. Because the things He blesses me with are often tangible or perceivable or at least often obvious, and even more of them not obvious, it is difficult to see past them, and to see Him. I know He is the one who bestows them, but since I can see the blessings easier than I can see Him, I often focus on the blessings and the results of the blessings instead of Him. It is proving quite difficult to find just Him, and I honestly have no idea how to do it. I’ve been taught, for what seems like always, that since we can’t see God, we can see the things He does and the blessings He gives. When someone questions, “I can’t see God, how do I know He is there?” one is supposed to reply about how one can’t see love but we know it’s there, or we can’t see the wind but we know it’s there, we can see the effects of the wind or the effects of love. The problem is that He only does and gives those things and isn’t actually, those things. So seeing only Him is not simple. Perhaps this is meant to keep one anticipating heaven because only in heaven will one be able to actually see God beyond the effects of God. I hope that isn’t true. I’d like to connect with Him a lot sooner than that, even if I die before I finish typing this word. Perhaps this can be done in worship? I don’t know. I am not wise. I hope to learn.
When Professor Carl reads to us in class, I sometimes forget that it isn’t him saying these things, but the author he is reading. I find it strange to read books that he has read passages from, because when I read a book, I read it as if the author is saying it; but if I’m reading from a book Professor Carl has read from, sometimes it’s like G.K. Chesterton or C.S. Lewis has stolen Professor Carl’s words and thoughts. And in a sense, they are Professor Carl’s words and thoughts, they are just manifested through the words of someone else.
‘so that your faith may not rest on the wisdom of Sean*, but on the power of God’ 1 Corinth. 2:5(*men) I have so little wisdom I don’t have the wisdom to stop relying on the little wisdom I have and instead on the power of God. I think someday when I have the time, I’m going to write the Sean Application Bible. It is really quite useful.
I’ve had some positive experiences lately. I hung out in the architecture building for a while yesterday, and talked a bit with Maria. I saw Jess for a while too. Kevin was there, but not as long as I might have liked. I just talked to Kristen a little while. Hm. That’s all I can remember.
I haven’t heard that ‘dare you to move’ enough. I’m not sure if that is what it’s called, but that song is definitely not played often enough. Funny, we have made all these advancements in technology, but sarcasm still remains unobtainable.
Brandon is going to Austria next semester. Good for him. The semester after he goes, I’m hopefully going to be in England. That is also the semester Brandon graduates.
I think the words ‘assume’ and ‘presume’ are often misused. Assume is often said, when presume is really meant. But I’m not sure. When should ‘pressume’ be used instead of ‘assume’? The OED defines ‘assume’ as this: trans. To take for granted as the basis of argument or action; to suppose: a. that a thing is, a thing to be. ‘Presume’ is defined as this: 2. To take upon oneself, undertake without adequate authority or permission; to venture upon. a. with simple object. intr. presume of: to lay claim to presumptuously, pretend to. 4. trans. To assume or take for granted; to presuppose; to anticipate, count upon, expect (in earliest instances with the notion of over-confidence). spec. in Law: To take as proved until evidence to the contrary is forthcoming. a. with inf., obj. clause or obj. and compl.
Because ‘assume’ is used in presume, I am confused. Does that mean anything either way? Perhaps my logic is false.
While we’re on the topic of definitions, I found this on the OED website too.
‘gluttony: The vice of excessive eating. (One of the seven deadly sins.) ex. taco eating contest.’
I’m able to relax tonight. Or so it seems. I’m going to make hot honey and milk. Then take a walk because the weather is beautiful. It was the last few days too, just not beautiful in a way that allows for walks to be taken. Then I’m going to bed when I should.