December 18, 2004 @ 1:14 pm by sean
Last night was the last Semper-fi show. That is quite sad. I had a lot of good memories that involved that band and the people in it. I’m still friends with Andy, but I’m not sure how much I’ll see the other guys anymore. Kind of like ETO. It was good to see people there I hadn’t seen in a while. Matt, Andrea, Nick, Danny. It was a really fun show. There aren’t too many bands around here anymore it seems. We hung out afterwards, I enjoyed that too.
The Longley’s had another baby. 10 pds. 23 ounces I think. Mum said that was big, that makes sense. It’s her 7th though, so I can’t imagine it was that much trouble.
I thought I could escape the feeling. I think maybe I thought writing down lyrics or continuing to like her would change something. I can’t picture her with anyone else, but I deserve her less than anyone else. She deserves someone great, a sweet, smart, rich, good-lookin’, caring, God-loving boy. She deserves far more than I could offer.
In ‘Perelandra’ by C.S. Lewis Ransom is trying to explain things to the Lady who is very young(recently created on Venus/Perelandra) and she realizes that One has an idea of good in there head, and upon receiving something else, they can either let go of the image of good and take this new good thing, or take the new thing but hold on to the image of the old and ruin both of them.
I had an image of ‘good’ in my head; of Nicole and me together. Though I don’t know if I’ve received something else, I need to be sure I don’t hold on to the old image and take the new good Maleldil(God) has given me.