November 3, 2004 @ 10:50 pm by sean
I told God I wanted what He wanted. To do that He seems to be taking away something I want more than anything I’ve ever wanted besides Him. I hope this isn’t really going to be the way I’m going to learn it. I don’t want to accept what that would mean.
I may not have thought much of myself before, but I never thought I could be as foolish as I am. I can’t believe I may actually have ruined the greatest blessing He’s ever given me. I can’t believe I was too selfish to see that she was everything I had asked Him for.
We were told in little league, it’s better to stike out swinging than to just sit there and watch the ball go by. You can’t hit a homerun by watching the ball. I’ve got to start swingin’.