November 29, 2004 @ 10:47 pm by sean
I don’t know if they are pleasantries or horrid curses, but sometimes I wish my dreams would never end; she loves me in my dreams. Although it’s amazing waking up realizing God gave me another day to live for Him, some dreams I’d rather I didn’t have to wake up from. Even if in the same dream I’m being chased by polar bears in my highschool. I think it would have gotten me if I didn’t wake up, the guys with the tranquilizer guns weren’t shooting it and the door I was putting between me and the bear wouldn’t stay shut on it’s own and it was about to come through and I didn’t know what to do. So I woke up.
I feel somewhat foolish for carrying this on. Actually, not really. By knowing what I’ve typed in these entries in the last few months and by people possibly knowing more than I know, I feel like people think I’m foolish. That was something I was afraid of in years past because I didn’t like the idea of being wrong. I guess now I’m not so concerned about that anymore. I never really did much for the specific purpose of people thinking what I wanted them to think, but it’s almost always been somewhat of a concern.
I haven’t really considered the consequences. I have for certain, but not all that much. I usually do for everything. But I think I’ve considered more of the consequences of doing homework instead of going to bed more than this. Maybe I should.