May 10, 2004 @ 12:43 am by sean
When/if that ‘special girl’ and I finally get together, there are two events of required happening. The first, is that when I come to visit her, she is always upstairs and when I walk up to the house, she flings the windows and curtain open and calls down to me. The second is that she is picking flowers(preferably of the yellow variety, dafodils perhaps) in a field(preferably with the Swiss Alps behind her) and when she sees me in the distance she runs to me and I run to her, and then we meet and she leaps into my arms and I embrace her and swing around and set her down and give her a large, joyous kiss.
Both of these require beautiful warm weather, and her in a dress. Other than that, it’s pretty much fair game.
Other possibilities include:
when I arrive at her residence, she rides up saddleside(?)(where they ride with their legs to the side. This also requires more green and brown in the landscape, as well as dew and mist. Or on a range in Montana on a slightly cold, breezy afternoon).
I meet her at the river where she swims up nude(we are obviously married at this point).
I watch between the tall grass from the steps of our old wooden cottage on a blustery, overcast day as she collects seashells on the beach in northern New England.
As she gets off the plane from somewhere cool, I meet her on the runway(small airport, no terminal) and she runs down in excitement into my arms(it is possibly a downpour.)
As she sleeps in her parents house, I come at night and through small stones at the window and beckon her to sneak out with me.
I just watched ‘Big Fish’ with my family. That was quite a profound movie. I think it may be the second movie I ever purchase. I can count on one hand the number of movies I’ve seen since Return Of The King opening night, but the last two have been worth watching. The other recent was “Frequency”. It was on T.V. and I watched it with the Maitlands. That wasn’t a typical profound movie, but the ideas I got from it were amazing. And the Maitlands are cool people. Kelly is going into chemical engineering at UofM and she told me the classes she is taking. I don’t even have words to say about how cool the classes are, and how smart one would have to be to even sit in the classroom. We are the same year, but she went away last year as well, sometimes I forget that and think this is both of our first years away, then I think I’m freshman. Anyway, “Big Fish” was really neat. And I could say a lot about it, but I don’t want to.
I feel so useless at work. One of the high points(not in terms of enjoyment but accomplishment) was being able to help one customer find the Burning Bush’s and the Boxwood’s. Whoopdidedo. I just stand there and look like I can be helpful, when really I know pretty much nothing. I feel kind of deceptive to the customers because the expect anyone with “Wade Nursery” on their shirt to be able to help them, and I can only load stuff in to their car, not actually answer questions. Then I feel bad taking tips because they will probably come back the next day complaining I did something wrong. Unfortunately feeling useless isn’t avoidable because I’m still quite new. But I still think feeling useless is the worst possible feeling anyone can have. Besides maybe flesh eating termites crawling around under one’s skin. Even if one feels lonely, if they still feel they have a purpose, all is not lost. But once someone feels useless, it’s all over. Fortunately I only feel useless at work.