April 8, 2004 @ 2:23 pm by sean
…..The pretty girl works at B&N, so maybe I’ll spend more time there. Is it wrong to look at girls as a beautiful creations of God? What about for a time that is longer than a glance? I like to stare at all kinds of things God created in nature, and if he created beautiful females, can I stare at them and appreciate the high aesthetic qualities I personally think they have? I’m not lusting after them or flirting with them, I’d rather they didn’t even notice. There are some really beautiful females out there, as well as beautiful landscapes and seascapes, and plants, and animals, and streams, and feilds, and forests, as well as man-made thing that God gave the talent to build, like art(like the stuff in the gallery if you haven’t seen it yet. All Jill’s stuff is great, and ‘passage #12′ is my favorite of Jessica’s, though all her stuff is great as well), and buildings and city scapes, and cars, and watches. Is it wrong to appreciate a beautiful female the same as all these other creations of God?
I went into the music deptartment where some cool people worked, or at least upon first impressions and communications with them seemed cool. And a similar looking female was working there, but with a different shirt than the first, so I don’t know if it was her. I never got a good look at the first one either.
It’s strange how first impressions can be wrong. I think most of my first wrong impressions worked out for the better, but it is weird when one thinks they might like someone because that person seems like they should be cool, or should be someone one likes to hang out with, but over time, it just isn’t there. And then one wonders why they do hang out with this person. Is this person really cool and interesting, or is it all on the surface and there really is no depth to the person as one once thought? Maybe it was never there in the first place and one just thought it was because they wanted the person to be cool and interesting before finding out if they really were or not. Or maybe all the depth was discovered right away, and now there is nothing more to find out or know about this person, and one is hoping there is more because knowing all that one knows, this person isn’t who one thought this person was originally.
Today is Thursday Thusday, so if you better listen to Thursday, if you don’t listen to Thursday, nothing will happen at all. You just won’t have heard Thursday on Thursday. That probably won’t change anything and your life consequently probably won’t be better or worse. Nothing really matters. One could die at any time, or someone else close to them die at any time, or have financial difficulties at any time, or fall in love at any time, fall upon some kind of misfortune at any time, or get busy at any time, or find liberation at any time. I like Dave Matthews Band.
Autumn Falls of a God-less Winter Death is Burning with a Hornless Unicorn