February 9, 2004 @ 11:21 pm by sean
Keep commenting on the physical communication post if you have anymore to say.
I’ve never written this much in one day. I haven’t been feeling well lately. I think it’s mostly due to the food here, but I think it’s emotionally too. I have that nervous anticipation heart beating in the stomach feeling. I’ve been taking steps to be more laid back and care-free, but the lack of free time from homework and classes only allows that on weekends. So the weekends are great, then Sunday night reality sets back in. Maybe it’s Unwed Sailor. Does anyone else feel like they are on a warm and slightly windy beach in Maine with a few large clouds in the sky and tall grass behind you when you listen to Marionette and the Music Box? That makes me sad because I can’t be where I’m picturing. I’ve been thinking a lot about home lately too. But not really usual memories. Like, I keep picturing the intersection at 31 mile road and the van dyke expressway. Or I’ll just picture the inside of someones house. Nothing of usual importance, just stuff at ‘home.’ I really want to go on tour with Dr. Miss Hannah, but I’ve just got to go home. I’ve finally gotten in a band and now I don’t have time to practice and am to home-sick to go on tour. I sound too emotional. I’m not this emotional.
It is quite irritating how some guys can totally ignore guy friends when a girl is around. I hate flirting and everything that goes with it. Flirting is one of the poorest ideas someone could have come up with. As I would say if I were a gangsta, bros before hos. And by bros of course I mean guy friends, and by hos I mean girls, but not in a bad way. Not like girls are hos, but ya know. Like, I don’t know. Just not in an offensive way. I suppose it’s more the guys fault anyway. I guess I could just delete that whole thing.. If I ever ignore someone–guy or girl– for a conversation with a girl, punch me in the face. And if I go down, kick me a few times.
I have more to write but I can’t find the Bible verse that is making me think it. So until I find it I can’t write it.