January 2, 2004 @ 5:12 pm by sean
i write to you with some degree of dispair. i have had the most fulfilling weeks of my life the last few. ive been fortunate to hang out with the friends and family that mean the most to me every night since ive been home save one. i feel closer to my friends than i ever have and have had the most meaningful times with them. we really havent done much more than hang out, but thats all i need. if we did more id be happy. but i am 100% satisfied just hangin around. but im sure you can see where the dispair comes in. in only 1 week and 3 days, i will be gone. and i think for a while. i dont know when our first break is. this isnt to say im not sincerely thankful for the great friendships ive already made at school, because i most definately am.
i know that i must go back. my future lies within the boundaries of judson. not with hangin out with friends. if i am to do what God has for me, i must go back to judson. there is no question about it. i wouldnt even consider staying home because it would accomplish nothin in terms of my career. it isnt even a bad thing to go back, i enjoy that place immensly. but if life could only be stayin up late with friends every night of the week, i would live that life forever.
last night best demonstrates the joy ive had. we had a thai dinner party provided for us by the wonderful chefs jiliian and alyson and megan and i think carley helped too. we played some video games, drank so sparkling white grape juice, played some poker which was fun in very large amounts, drank a little bit of wine(i did, i dont think anyone else did.), fellowshiped, took some pictures, and ben and i topped it off by staying up until 7 this morning playing ‘trucrime streets of la’. we killed a lot of innocent people. and got some of the bad guys in the process.
jillian will be gone. when i leave in a week and some, i wont see her until july. although that is quite depressing, she is doing the work of the Lord, so i cant be all that sad. but that is quite a long time.
quite a long time indeed.