November 4, 2003 @ 12:17 am by sean
some people call me the space cowboy.
well coldplay is amazing and thats all there is to it. the thing at the theatre was what the dvd is goin to be. its was great. it was just concert footage and a tour diary. but it was the greatest concert footage and tour diary ever. i got lost on the way there. twice. i got there 20 minutes late. sarah got lost too, so i guess i didnt do too bad. so of course on the way home i was thinking about coldplay, and i was thinking the only thing better maybe than a coldplay nap, would be a coldplay cuddle. im not totally sure about that, be pretty certain. so then of course i started thinking about females and relationships and marriage and such, and i realized im not ready. those of you who know me and my outlook on marriage, you might know id like to be married around 21ish. my bestfriends just got married at 21 and that seems like the best time to do it. but i also am not into the whole boyfriend-girlfriend thing. it seems like an entire waste of time and money, and mostly emotions. though i have been in two relationships, id rather i hadnt. ive never been on a date outside of a relationship, but i reckon i would have no problem with that. so anyway, although i have a strong desire to be certain who the most wonderful female is for me, i dont think im strong enough spiritually or mentally to be in a relationship. lifes meant for living, and i dont want to live it alone. but i suppose i can wait, even if thats not really up to me if i wait or not. i just cant picture myself in a relationship and bettering the life of another individual. God knows the other two arent any better because of me. so now all who have read this, know my thoughts. i think that may be the first time my deep thoughts were put on here.
i also thought about america on the way home. seeing cool brittish people will make one think of america, and how much it sucks. america just reeks of cheapness(low quality), drunkeness, quickly faded trends, wasted instant pleasures, debauchery, idolitary, concededness. im sorry if i offended any die-hard americans. i truely love what america is meant to be, i love the wilderness of america. but i hate the society.
so im sorry i write so much. if you actually read all this, than you will know how much i love you. those who didnt finish this may not find that out.