November 30, 2003 @ 11:53 pm by sean
im back! im not sure that deserved an exclimation mark cause im not so sure im that happy to be back. this time was definately the hardest to come back, even though ill be home next friday. it was such a great break, i didnt want it to end. i got up at 130 or 2 in the afternoon almost every day cause i went to bed at 2 or 3 every night. i havent gotten that much sleep in a really long time. it was fantastic! and i got to hang out with ben and lisa twice and church today, and jillian three times and church today, and alyson twice and church today, sean once and church today, and carley twice and church today. but when i hung out with carley i got to hang out with delphine and shova from france and nepal respectively. they were so cool. delphine made us crepes last night that were pretty good (though i was lookin forward to alysons.) it was soooo neat to hang out with people not of this country. it definately helped increase my distaste for this country. last night after carley went to bed i stayed with delphine and shova watching tv for a short while, and its a different experience watching tv with people who dont see the same stuff on their tv. i felt very trivial and nonsensical. all the products we advertise and shows that entertain us are so worthless. i felt kind of ashamed to be american. they were fun though. delphine beat me 2 out of 3 times in foseball, but i dominated in team play. out of 5 or 6 games her team only beat mine once. and that was with her crazy french rules. it was fun to joke around and make fun of france and have someone make fun of america. and learn how pretty much all our stereotypes about the french are wrong. it was definately an experience i am thankful for, and it came convieniently around thanksgiving. and i got to go to canada, and though my unsafisticated friends didnt want any wine, i got some anyway. i had to go with the house wine which was only a quarter litre cause i couldnt afford to buy a whole bottle for myself, but it decent. it was from canada, in the lake superior area. a red wine of some sort, though i dont remember what kind specifically.
i got along better with my parents cat this weekend too. i dont much like cats cause they make me sneeze and make my eyes itch and my nose itch, but it didnt attack me all too much. it even let me pet it and it slept on the desk while i was on the computer.
i figured out what i was tryin to say in a previous post about things being familiar and stuff. things were familiar but not usual. and this break things went back to usual really quick. i forgot about school very fast. i had to consciencely thing about school or else there were no thoughts of it at all. some of my relationships with friends back home have strenghtened while ive been away, so to go home to those relationships was so wonderful, i didnt want to leave to come back to a place where the relationships arent so strong. not to say that the ones i have here arent great, they most definately are. but they arent the same. and i realize the ones i have at home have grown over a long period of time and ive only been here a few months, id still like a hug when im here. and there isnt anyone i feel comfortable hugging. this is usual though, and familiar and ive only been here an hour and a half. its only until next friday i suppose. but im dissapointed that i only get to go to second baptist one more time until i leave for a month. and that there is a whole month that i could be strengthening the relationships i am making here, but i will be at home instead. i am grateful to go home because i love my friends there, but i want to strengthen the relationships i have here too. so now that that went much deeper than i thought it would, im going to do my homework so i can hopefully have time to call brittany. i havent spoken with her in a month and half and im not sure what to say. or if she is even alive.